I woke up early today. Just before azan Subuh. I felt so happy and energetic. I even tweeted about it. I greeted my friends and cousin with a happy 'good morning' greet. I was happy. At 8 am, my brother and I went out to shop for our kitchen supplies. And for our cats' food. It was really a happy and bright morning. I felt relaxed and just happy. I just knew everything would turn out perfect today.
We were in front of our house when my hand phone received a call from an unknown number. I answered it. A lady. She told me I was supposed to attend for a job interview. Today. 10 am. And when I looked at my car's digital clock, it said 1 hour to interview. And I was supposed to be there before 10! She asked me whether I had received any news about it and I said, 'no'. Of course I didn't! Because I didn't get any letters or phone calls prior to this date! She told me to refer to the interview section. And I called. This time, a guy answered.
I told him my problem. He told me, "Kami cek rah pejabat pos. Apa masalah durang. Kami antar sudah surat atu on 16th January" And when I asked about any SMS-es, he told me, "Kami menghantar saja SMS atu tapi bukan kami yang operate" My heart was pounding hard. I wanted to cry. I felt like being bullied by them. I asked him what to do. He told me to write a letter to their secretary about this matter and said "Ada kami telipun tu kalau kana pertimbangkan". I was like, "Ok, terima kasih".
As soon as I hanged up the phone, I almost broke down crying. What if that was my only chance to get that job? What if someone else took the job...? What if...? I was not thinking straight. I typed out the letter as soon as I hanged up the phone. And it's done now. Waiting to be printed. But then...after a few minutes of thinking and arguing with myself, I suddenly felt cooled down. I felt calm. Somehow. And there's a voice inside me telling me to relax. And I'm thinking, if the letter I'll send is not accepted, then, I should be happy. It means, that job is not meant for me. And if they consider it still, I should be happy too. Because I have a chance to prove that I can be their best candidate. And that job might be mine.
And now, I have my happy feeling back :) Yea, this is something I can't control. It wasn't my fault anyway. So, why sad? If it's meant for me, then it will come. If not, then, I don't deserve that job. It means I deserve a better job. And they lost. Because I might be just that person they were looking for. Thank you God for helping me. I know, You are giving me something good. And I believe that. I won't let that moment ruin my day.
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