RaNdOm...

This afternoon I decided to stay at home to get a good rest. And yes, I did. It had been such a busy week for me and all I need is just a good rest in one afternoon. Alhamdulillah, I had it enough :) I played around with my iPad while watching the TV. And got myself so spoiled in the air conditioned living room. It was already 4 pm and my fingers automatically changed the TV channel to Nickelodeon. Yes, Nickelodeon. And there it was. One of our favourite TV shows, Victorious. My siblings were in their room, so I watched it alone. I found this episode of Victorious to be awesome. Awesome because I fall in love with Leon Thomas' and Victoria Justice's Song for You. Somehow the song really gave me a good feeling. I felt like in love. :) Then, it was iCarly. And yes, it was also an awesome episode. When Carly thought she loved Freddie because Freddie saved her from being hit by a taco truck. Really, both TV shows made me feel...happy inside :)

And that made me think. Hard. Actually, I have been thinking about this since a few weeks ago. It just came straight into my mind. How old am I exactly? Really. How old am I? I was born 26 years ago but then I realise sometimes I don't act or think like a 26 year old lady. Sometimes I act like a teenager. And I just can't take life so seriously that I let myself to laugh over mistakes I have done. For me, mistakes aren't mistakes. They are just lessons.

Yes, I found myself to get along well with teenagers. Boys and girls. I used to teach year 11s and year 7s, and I got along well with year 11's more than year 7... I think it is because I am the eldest in the family and I have one sister and two brothers whose ages range between 23 to 15 years old. I love what they love and I dislike what they dislike, too. They get along well with my likes and dislikes too, but not all the time. We have our own language that others don't understand, including our parents. Tee-hee...

Anyhow, I keep telling myself to be me despite of what others think about me. I always remind myself that I know who I am and I don't want other people's opinions to change who I am inside. And for every obstacle I face, I can feel that I am getting stronger inside because I know, God is always with me. Yes, I do mistakes. A lot of them. And the most important thing is...I learn. I change. For good. And I know, I have a wonderful family and friends (though not many) who love and understand me. Thank you.... :) I don't need that many friends as long as I have my family and friends who are always there to support me. And I make sure to be there for them too. Always.