Thursday, July 25, 2013

I love you too~


Hi :) Malam ini aku berada di rumah Nenek di kampung. Malam ini juga sedang diadakan Majlis Berbuka Puasa bersama Zizan Razak anjuran ZTF. Wah~ I am so happy. ZTF sudah semakin hebat. Walaupun aku tidak ada di sana, namun aku tetap rasa happy! Demi Zizan, kami rela~ Aiseh. Hehehe~ Semoga ZTF akan tetap bertahan sampai bila-bila. Demi Zizan yang kami sayang. Takkan goyah, takkan mundur. ZTF tetap akan sentiasa bersatu, Amin. :) Oh, tadi aku juga singgah ke rumah sahabat An-Nisaa ku, Sut, untuk memberikan hadiah ulang tahunnya :') I really love you Sut. I really love my An-Nisaa friends. Hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu betapa sayangnya ku pada mereka :') As we always pray, "Friendship 'till Jannah" Amin... :')

:) I love you too Zizan
Anyway, malam ni dah masuk 17 Ramadhan. Salam Nuzul Al-Quran. Oh... Malam Nuzul Al-Quran... Malam ni, cuaca sungguh tenang. Langit malam kelihatan begitu indah dengan dihiasi cahaya bintang-bintang dan sang rembulan. Tidak ada sedikit awan pun yang ada. Langit kelihatan sungguh-sungguh indah dan permai. Terlalu indah tak mampu ku ungkapkan dengan kata-kata. Di dalam perjalanan dari rumah ibu saudaraku menuju ke rumah Nenek, mataku tak lepas memandang sang rembulan yang menyinari kegelapan malam. Tambahan pula di kampung, kurangnya light pollution, jadi cahaya sang rembulan dapat kunikmati dengan sepenuhnya. Adikku yang sedang driving berkata, "Sudah berapa ribu tahun umur bulan. Sudah banyak generasi yang melihat bulan. Tetap lawa". Aku diam memikirkan kata-katanya. Ada benarnya :) Mindaku mula berputar ligat memikirkan kebesaran Tuhan. Tenang hatiku bila memikirkan hal-hal sebegini :) Sungguh indah ciptaan Tuhan. Hati memanjatkan syukur berkali-kali.

Ok, time to sleep now :) Good night. 
Love is beautiful

Monday, July 22, 2013

Malam yang indah.

Hai :) Malam ini sudah memasuki 14 Ramadhan 1434 Hijrah. Masa berlalu begitu cepatnya dan aku sudah mula merindui bulan Ramadhan. Suasana bulan puasa memang sungguh indah. Tidak dapat ku ungkapkan dengan kata-kata. Ramadhan tahun ini bagiku terasa jauh lebih indah dari sebelumnya. Entah aku pun tak pasti mengapa tapi terasa sesuatu di dalamnya yang begitu menenangkan. Sungguh... Tak mampu ku ungkapkan dengan kata-kata. Hanya Tuhan saja yang tau perasaanku... :') Aku hanya berharap agar Ramadhan ini berlalu dengan begitu perlahan agar dapat ku nikmati setiap malamnya yang sungguh tenang lagi indah...

Tadi pagi aku menonton sebuah telemovie lakonan Andre Taulany; Kiamat Sudah Dekat. Filem lama, tahun 2003. Sebuah telemovie yang penuh dengan pesanan dan ilmu yang bermakna. "Kuasai ilmu ikhlas". Bukan saja kerana pelakonnya Andre (heheheh~ :p ), tapi aku menangis menonton telemovie ini kerana ia sedikit sebanyak meyentuh kalbuku dengan begitu mendalam. It's an indescribable feeling. Seriously. Pokoknya, fikiranku bagaikan diterangi, hatiku bagaikan semakin disinari dan aku percaya masa itu semakin dekat. Aku semakin bersemangat untuk mencapai impianku. Terima kasih Tuhan kerana memberiku aqal untuk berfikir sejauh dan sedalam ini. Sungguh...aku berasa begitu tenang... Sepanjang hari ini ku lalui dengan rasa yang penuh syukur kerana masih diberi nafas dan masih mampu berjalan di atas muka bumi ini dengan tenang. Dan aku juga bersyukur kerana Tuhan telah membawa aku ke hari ini. Aku merasa sungguh bahagia kerana-Nya :') I am smiling now cos' I feel happy inside. I feel loved...

Okay, that's all for tonight. Good night :)


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Gratitude



This is such a beautiful video. Take a few minutes to watch this and try to think what is it in your life that makes it beautiful.

"You think this is just another day in your life? It's not just another day. It's the one that is given to you today. It's given to you. It's a gift. It's the only gift that you have right now, and the only appropriate response is gratefulness."


I feel grateful that I have been given this life. I love just the way I am. I am not perfect and I have many flaws. I choose to see my flaws as my uniqueness and I choose to accept whatever it is that people criticise about me. Let them talk. They do not walk in my shoes. I will never stop learning and I will not let the negative people to influence my thoughts. I love to learn new things every day. Life is all about journey and it depends on me how to live my life. I know what I want and I believe God is always there to help. 

"God is never blind to your tears, deaf to your prayers and never silent to your pain. He sees, He hears and He will deliver."

Live. 
Laugh. 
Love.

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

Choose to live.

You know, there are times when you suddenly feel down, when you suddenly feel like nobody is there for you, you feel like crying and screaming at the same time, and keep asking yourself, "Why me? Why can't I be as good as them? Why can't I be like them? Why are they happy and I am not? I feel so left out. I feel bad. And I don't deserve to live in this world" I am sure we are faced or maybe have faced these kinds of situations, right? You just feel like you are nobody, you are just like some plastic bags near the road. Waiting to be blown away or worse, burnt. No one cares. No one listens to you. No one realises your existence. And there you are, just standing or sitting there, alone, at one corner. Not doing anything, while watching the rest in the room laughing and talking to each other happily. 

Now, it is the right time for you to fight against the voices in your head. They are just your thoughts, your perception and your sense of inferiority. People know you are there, you do exist. It's just that you CHOOSE to think that you don't exist. Right? Life is a matter of choices. Each and every day, we are faced with situations where we are to choose what to do, what to say. (Except death. You can't choose whether you want to die today or tomorrow or don't die at all). 

So, next time you feel like a plastic bag at the side of the road, just think, "I choose to live. Not to waste all the time feeling sad and upset. Life is meant to be enjoyed and lived. Every moment spent worrying is a moment wasted in my life" Don't worry. God gives us life as a responsibility. We are allowed to choose whether we want to spend our limited lifetime by worrying and thinking about others OR we want to invest in our lifetime to live, really live and love those who are in our lives. Spend our lifetime wisely, or we will look back, regretting all the moments that's passed. 

Don't worry, be happy. Think positive and all the good things will come to you :)